I’ve never known how much I needed grace until I had my daughter. More specifically, a toddler daughter who is full of wonder and curiosity. She looks at me from her car seat, big brown eyes serious as she fires off a storm of questions:
What’s that, mommy?
What’s a fire hydrant?
Who is that boy?
Where are we going?
Why are you in that seat?
What is that thing?
That last one? She was watching an Easter music video on my phone (on our favorite Yancy Not Nancy “Little Praise Party” app) and I knew which scene it was – a lovely, inspiring image of the stone rolling away from the tomb because “Jesus is alive!” We’d watched it several times the night before during bath time (enough that I woke up with the song in my head before I even had coffee) and she’d asked me the same question. She understood the cartoon image of Jesus. She sang along to the words she knew. She knew it was about Easter. But how do you explain an empty tomb to a two year old?
If you’re me? You don’t.
Or you try. And realize that you can barely grasp the significance & enormity of that moment as an adult whose faith still feels so brand new and to try to put it into words that a toddler will understand? It felt impossible and I added it to the list of “things I don’t do well as a mom.” It’s a long list.
I went to God with it because my heart hurt that I wasn’t able to answer her question – especially in the middle of a season that is all about filling up on candy but the truth is the most significant part of the story is the emptiness. I’m not a Bible scholar. I’ve never been to seminary, I don’t read my Bible every day, and I have a pile of half-finished Bible studies collecting dust on a book shelf full of good intentions. But I love Jesus with my whole heart and can’t make it through the day without Him.
His grace fills my weaknesses.
And He was gracious to reassure my hurting mama heart that it was okay that I didn’t have the words this time. But I know the questions will continue, and I know my little girl will want to know more about Jesus, so I’d love to know if you have resources that you love that help answer ALL those questions, I’d love for you to share them with me! As she continues to grow and learn, I’ll be growing and learning right alongside her – and leaning into grace.