I could see it in her beautiful blue eyes. I had messed up and now I was in the middle of an avalanche of emotions. Hers and mine. I apologized of course but the wound would take longer to heal than my quickly offered, “I’m so sorry baby.” So we slowly danced she and I with our still swirling emotions. Me being the one who had caused the blow. Her learning that sometimes mom’s mess up and need all the grace.
Mommy guilt is real. I’m learning more and more this truth:
“I’ve spent years trying to understand grace, and I’m convinced it is the antidote for guilt. The two can’t live together. One displaces the other. Ideally, grace lives and breathes in our life, and guilt leaves. But, more often then not the opposite is true. How do we give grace more space to rest in our lives?” Hope for the Weary Mom, page 74.
Giving grace more space to rest in my life has been a journey since before I became a mom of four girls. I wish like crazy I could tell you I’ve figured it all out but I can’t. What I can tell you is I’m a work in progress. I’ve learned a thing or two, and these days, even though mommy guilt still likes to hang out at my house and in the dark corners of my heart, I’m also seeing grace move as well.
I wonder if you can relate as well. I started a conversation on Facebook about it not too long ago and the response I received from other moms was overwhelming. I’m not the only one who struggles. We all do. In fact, in the new Hope for the Weary Mom I wrote an entire chapter on the subject. I could probably write a whole book. The one chapter was tough enough. A whole book may do me in. The good news is God is not finished with me yet in this area. I’m grateful he is ever patient with me.
He loves me wildly. Just like I love my girl with the great big gaping wound I caused. He loves her too. Thankfully, we are growing in grace together.
Grab a copy of Hope for the Weary Mom: Let God Meet You in the Mess (featuring the new “Redeeming Mommy Guilt” chapter). I hope it encourages your heart. My friend Brooke and I wrote it for moms like you and me who need a reminder that life is hard, but hope is real.